When I set my mind free

I am glad that today I have time for all this. Time to entertain both of us, but maybe one day I will be done with all this and on that day, while sitting alone at my desk, having nothing to occupy myself, maybe on that day I will set you (my mind) free and then wait for you to return, with stories, adventures, shame or joy.

I will listen patiently to all your tales like a abandoned old man who has nothing to do for. Maybe I will ask questions, maybe sometime I would like to know all in detail, or maybe I will accept your short quirk replies. All will be done as per your wish, as you know I have nothing to do or say.

But I do wonder, what will you bring back to me, when I set you free? Will you confront me with new stuff, or will you be happy to linger around my old memories? I wonder what will be his choice?

I guess, he will be comfortable in my pile of past memories, but then I don’t want that stuff. I want something new, fresh and alive. Something which will pump adrenalin in my old veins, which will make my heart weep profoundly either in pain or happiness or make me dance in joy. I want him to gift me bliss.

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MY MIND

Nothing I have now, nothing is left.
All is empty and nothing is unkept.
All is drained and filled with silence.
My mind as a void, is guarded by thorny fence.
Yes it has nothing, but still it resist,
Keeps away all better thoughts and exist.
Trembles my heart and makes it wither.
Nothing, nothing I do makes him suffer.
Drowsy and stubborn it lays in his lair
Deprives me, my gifted charisma and flair.
Yes it is mine and I need it now the most
Life is tough and time is worst.
I survive, you survive my friend
Keep apart all your games and let me lend.
All my talent, all my will power.
I need it at once for his blessings to shower.
Come and be with me, don’t be stubborn.
Yes you had your way, now let’s together learn.
Learn the purpose of life, learn the meaning
Learn how to face the sun up above shining
That’s it my mate, come and embrace
I spread my arms, just stand up and face.
You and me, nothing else matters.
Neither of us is salve, nor is anyone master.
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©Vishal Raut

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Casual Conversation

Hi, how are you? Yes I am asking you. How have you been lately? Sorry I never bothered to ask you, about you”

‘Now you might be wondering, how the hell this happened? Why is he suddenly asking me, how I am? He knows how I am, he knows how I have been in past and in fact he will decide how I will be in future. Then why is he even bothering himself by asking me?’

‘Yes, I know you, yes I have been responsible for all that you have been till now and what you will be in future. Yes, you and me have been dwelling together in a same physical form, responsible for its performance and survival. But never have we existed as our self for each other. We have mostly never acknowledged our identity and understood the reason behind our purpose.
You are the heart, emotional, mushy, traumatic and the anxious one. I am the mind, rational, pragmatic, logical one. Yes most of the time I dominate you, very few keep the courage to follow you. I have more slaves than masters. You have dreams, aspirations, ambitions. I on the contrary have statistics, reality check and knowledge to back up with. Yes I am easy to follow and better to understand. You are the most complicated one. Never emotes anything clearly, never express anything vividly.
So my lovely colleague, yes I am your competitor, but believe me, I never had a choice for it. Choice is not with both of us. So rather than being stranger why can’t we be a good neighbor. Let the one who has the choice, decide, which house he or she want to dwell in’

Which house do you guys prefer to dwell in? Do share with me in my comments section.

VISHAL RAUT

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Thoughtless Mind 

When they arrives in my mind, they comes unwarned and unexpected and when I order them to go and leave me alone, they choose to stay back. Thoughts, what are they?? Sometimes they bless me with pleasure but most of the time they turn dreadful and curse me with anxiety.

 “Always take care of your thoughts, because our emotions are slave to our thought and we are slave to our emotions.” I never controlled my thoughts till now. I never felt the necessity to do so. I was comfortable with them, until they started messing up my mind with all negative stuff. Yes people around me realized that and even tried to warn me, but I was so happy with my thinking mind that I considered them foolish. What is the use of this mind, if we don’t churn it continuously with our thoughts? My mind was working, I was turning pragmatic and had opinion about every stuff that happened around me, I thought it is fine to have opinion , even if it does not matter to me at all, because I am keeping my mind at work and I have no necessity to preserve it.

It was fine until people around me started getting frustrated with my harsh opinions and useless chatter, so when things went bad in my life and when I started facing disappointment, all I could think about was how it will get worse. My loved ones came to me and tried to guide me  but all I could see or make them understand was how things will go worst. I started thinking of all the adversity that can happen in my life and started projecting it strongly around me and even started preparing for it, when nothing had happened at all. I was so busy in my preparation that I never realized that how far I had come from all those people whom I loved and cared the most. I never realized how much I had lost and how little I was left with in my life. My thinking mind never made me realize all this on the contrary it kept me busy in all negative and worthless thinking.

Now, when at last sun dawned on me and my sleeping consciousness, I understood that now I have to control this wild horse that I had set free for a long time. Taming him is going to be difficult but I was sure there are ways.

So I found some ways and I am even practicing it to improve my life and control my thoughts.  You guys have any do let me know in my comments section.

VISHAL RAUT

DEMON IN MY MIND 

          

Oh you demon siting in my head

Leave me alone for a moment. 

Enough of haunting and playing with your prey. 

Abandon me now atleast, don’t wait till peril. 


Your every evil intention has been fulfilled. 

My every aspiration  have been shattered. 

You have me and  I am left with nothing. 

Give up now and go away for hunting. 


Maya is your master, greed your weapon. 

Illusion is your trap in which we succumb so faster. 

Weak is my heart and fragile my dreams. 

You will never set me free, no matter how louder I scream.


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MY BACKYARD 

​I dumped many useless things in my backyard,

Now it is full, stinking and rotten.

Doors are closed and locked for ages,

But foul smell is escaping through creeks and edges.


It reminds me how much I owe.

Unreasonable, useless and miserable things. 

Things which have ruined me, tortured me.

Things which have shackled me to my past.


“Get rid of them as soon as you can” 

“Throw them, burn them, dispose them” 

“Do whatever you can, as soon as you can”


I know what has to be done, how it has to be done. 

I know all, because I learned all. 

Every knowledge, every path was available for me.

Every answer was within reach of my will


But still my backyard is full and so my mind.

My past is relishing on my present.

My heart is heavy with pain,

and for love, no space is left within me.

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