Expressing Life

Me and my life 

I started this blog with only one idea in my mind. I wanted to understand what exactly is blogging and how is it done. Wait, let me make one thing very clear, that I am not at all intretsed to make money by blogging but if ever I get the opportunity to earn, I have no issue with it.

So I choose this site which made my blog page very easily. But the very next question was what will I be blogging off ? I am presently living a mediocre life in a metro city of India. Striving hard to earn livelihood for myself and my family with hardly any adventure in my life. 

I do have some hobbies, which well are not so unique but very special to me. But then writing about them will not be so exiciting. So after thinking for a while I decided to write about life in general.

Life, I know is such a common word which we use daily thousand times in our communication. Boss shouts on your colleague in front of you, you patt his/her shoulder and say “it is part of a life don’t worry. “You don’t get a seat to sit in a metro while going back home when you are tired and need the most, you smirk and say to yourself “what a life.” You follow your favourite person on Instagram/Twitter and go through his daily post and pic, envy him and show them to your friends and say “he/she is truly living a splendour life.”

Life, we all celebrate, curse , envy, blame, spend, live every moment. We do all this in our life, with our life and never ever try to understand that all this is possible for us only because we are blessed with a Life.

So here I am, and I have decided to blog about Life, it can be anybody’s life, yours, mine anybody’s. I will in my subsequent blogs try to express various forms of a human life in every aspects of society within my country and place/society I get opportunity to live in with.

Thank you and do comments whatever you feel like and kindly tolerate my typo/grammatical errors if any.

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What I Had, What I Have. 

​Some of my days are old and tired, 

Some are young and excited.

Some make me creep and crawl every moment.

Some push me beyond my limits.

I have a curse which I don’t  know, when ends.

I have a blessing which I know,  will end soon.

I am human,with a bit of divine in me.

I am a human, with a demon being in me.

Love and hatred all exist within me.

Love is mere and hate is surplus within me.

Quest is on , but lazinees overides it.

Battle  continues even when,  war is lost.

You have me,but I have none.

You have love, and I have pain.

Bless My Lord! bless me atleast now, 

With divine love and mist of grace.

Unwind my faith, and enrich it again.

Break my shackles and strengthen my leap.

Hate and sorrow , I had enough.

Love and only love, I need hence on.

With this post, I am wishing you all a very Merry Christmas and Happy new year!!! 

I wish my friends  all the happiness and prosperity in this coming year. 

 Copyright ©Vishal  Raut 

Thoughtless Mind 

When they arrives in my mind, they comes unwarned and unexpected and when I order them to go and leave me alone, they choose to stay back. Thoughts, what are they?? Sometimes they bless me with pleasure but most of the time they turn dreadful and curse me with anxiety.

 “Always take care of your thoughts, because our emotions are slave to our thought and we are slave to our emotions.” I never controlled my thoughts till now. I never felt the necessity to do so. I was comfortable with them, until they started messing up my mind with all negative stuff. Yes people around me realized that and even tried to warn me, but I was so happy with my thinking mind that I considered them foolish. What is the use of this mind, if we don’t churn it continuously with our thoughts? My mind was working, I was turning pragmatic and had opinion about every stuff that happened around me, I thought it is fine to have opinion , even if it does not matter to me at all, because I am keeping my mind at work and I have no necessity to preserve it.

It was fine until people around me started getting frustrated with my harsh opinions and useless chatter, so when things went bad in my life and when I started facing disappointment, all I could think about was how it will get worse. My loved ones came to me and tried to guide me  but all I could see or make them understand was how things will go worst. I started thinking of all the adversity that can happen in my life and started projecting it strongly around me and even started preparing for it, when nothing had happened at all. I was so busy in my preparation that I never realized that how far I had come from all those people whom I loved and cared the most. I never realized how much I had lost and how little I was left with in my life. My thinking mind never made me realize all this on the contrary it kept me busy in all negative and worthless thinking.

Now, when at last sun dawned on me and my sleeping consciousness, I understood that now I have to control this wild horse that I had set free for a long time. Taming him is going to be difficult but I was sure there are ways.

So I found some ways and I am even practicing it to improve my life and control my thoughts.  You guys have any do let me know in my comments section.


Life Part – 2

Some people don’t understand the meaning of why such a feeling arises within them, when  they really are not expecting it? Why do the have to suppress it, irrespective of what it says and what it means, why? 

This state of dilemma slowly, gradually starts creating a void within them in which their happiness is lost and all they are left with is an empty silence which ultimately embrace the individual. It is just like a facade of a palace which looks beautiful under the shining sun but  turns eerily in a horror site on dark nights. 

So to know what it means and to learn from it, we all need to understand our life and convey her the meaning of being you with her. 

Copyright © Vishal Raut 

LIFE – Part 1

Life will pass by and so will my existence on this earth. But some questions will be there always.

Have I lived my life?

Have I completed the journey?

Have I achieved my purpose here?

Have all my desires and dreams fulfilled here?

Existing as a small speck in this world, will I someday witness the glory of my life?

Will I witness my destiny one day?
Copyright ©VISHAL RAUT

His New Identity 

It was very fine for me, dad not talking with me, still fuming with rage because of my recent confrontation,  mother busy in her daily morning chores completely unaware of our presence. This has been normal for us recently. We lived under one roof and shared many good memories here till now, but situation has changed us all, for good I hope. Now we three of us have created our own dimension in our home and are dwelling in it without disturbing each other. A three dimensions of three individuals in a three dimensional home of ours

Excitement, passion for life and hunger for success are my father’s proud qualities. Calm, gentle and caring are features of my mother which obviously are or most of mothers in this world. I on the contrary never possessed any of this. Love, yes I had immense for them, but compassion and care was absent. Respect was there but thick void space existed between me and them.

No it was not their upbringing to blame for my situations nor did they ever mistreated or abused me. They are ideal parents, who always gave me and my requirements priority. It was me who was failing them, I was not like them at all. Not even a speck of mine represented an ounce of them. They realized this very late but I knew it much earlier.

I hided it from them as long as I can, I even tried to change or rather go against the nature to be as per their expectations, but I failed miserably every time.

My truth dawned on me gradually and I confessed it to them after lot of persuasion by my heart to me, and from that day onwards till today it has been very difficult for them to accept me as I am. Efforts from them are there, they know they can’t abandon me or I think love for me is upholding them from not giving up.

Love which have bounded three diverse people like us together and has strengthen us for so long will be required now abundantly. It has to make my mother understand that her son is not normal, but still it is her son who loves her and asks nothing but love in return. It has to weaken my  father’s pride and ego  and strengthen his heart to expect me as I am, because I am not the son he wanted but maybe I am better in other ways. My love for him is unconditional and so must be his love for me.

Yes my parents, I am a gay and this is what I can’t hide nor lie to you. Life, yes I love you a lot and would like to spend with you both. 

Some reality of our society scripted by me. PURE FICTIONAL. Do comment your opinions. 


Image – Google 


What is waiting ahead of this moment, I am pondering.

What I have in this moment, I am wondering.

Moments pass, every moment, when I think.

Moments pass,  every moment, when I worry.
What I have? what will I have? when will I have? how will I have?

So much I think  in this tiny moments.

Made me loose my all opportunities in this tiny moments.

Made me loose my all relations in this tiny moments. 
All sum up to none, but a lost moment

All end up with nothing, but a lost present. 

So why should I waste this moment, 

When I can have  everything or loose nothing in this moment. 
Copyright © Vishal Raut

Pieces of Me 

Pieces of me, which shattered last night,

Scattered now around me are glistening under light.

They are me and I was them, some time back,

But now I am new and they enlighten my track.

Immense energy and boundless courage was taken, 

To break my old self, and to patiently listen. 

The voice from my heart and of my loved ones,

Insisting me to reform and at once get it done. 

Love and faith is what I must vision ahead, 

Fear and guilt, I must abandon. 

Accepting myself and my situation must be learned soon,

What awaits me ahead is a shimmering lovely full moon.

Copyright ©Vishal Raut 

Chaisng Dreams 

“​Wait for me”, I said to her like every time. 

“I will return soon this time”  I said.

She stared in my eyes and tries to reach my heart. 

My shivering soul,  hides deep in shame and despise. 

She knows,  I am lying like last time. 

She knows I am chasing my dreams abondoning her this time

Copyright ©Vishal Raut 



Oh you demon siting in my head

Leave me alone for a moment. 

Enough of haunting and playing with your prey. 

Abandon me now atleast, don’t wait till peril. 

Your every evil intention has been fulfilled. 

My every aspiration  have been shattered. 

You have me and  I am left with nothing. 

Give up now and go away for hunting. 

Maya is your master, greed your weapon. 

Illusion is your trap in which we succumb so faster. 

Weak is my heart and fragile my dreams. 

You will never set me free, no matter how louder I scream.

Copyright ©Vishal Raut

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